- risk

There is a risk in falling in love. You keep yourself away from it because of the fear of feeling too much. You think it's enough to pretend you don't care when a boy calls you beautiful or gives you that smile you loved when you weren't afraid to feel yet. You're convincing yourself love isn't worth your time and when a boy passes by you, you're looking straight ahead with pale face and numb lips, you keep your eyes uninterested and dead-looking. It feels so good, keeps you in control. Your heart was broken enough times for you to think it's not safe to let it feel again.